
Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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I just joined don't know if anyone really cares. But I joined hoping something will change my mind about my plans to end it all next year. Yes I have real plans to end it all for good. I am not going to throw a pity party. I am not here for someone to feel pity for me. Crap, I am here hoping to find hope to survive. Find out people do care out there in the cold cruel world we live in.
I just joined don't know if anyone really cares. But I joined hoping something will change my mind about my plans to end it all next year. Yes I have real plans to end it all for good. I am not going to throw a pity party. I am not here for someone to feel pity for me. Crap, I am here hoping to find hope to survive. Find out people do care out there in the cold cruel world we live in.
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but i just want you to know that i've been where you are and if you'd like to talk more about it, i'm able and willing to talk to you about anything.
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To all who have suicidal thoughts...
Please get help. I have had the suicide spirit follow me for days on end, and yes it sounded like sweet relief, but luckily I was able to shake it off and see better days. I never got serious, thank God. You have no idea what a BAD idea that is. My brother committed suicide almost one year ago 11/17/06. I can't believe the anniversary is coming up so fast. When I got the call just before 4 in the morning, I had sounds coming out of me that I never made before. I was so loud, I ran outside so that my children wouldn't wake to such awful sounds coming from me. As someone who has been HURT by suicide, I say to you to do whatever you need to do to shake it. Go to the ER, call the National Suicide Hotline. Something. Life is so much more than being skinny, life is so much more than money. Life is so much more than planning your death. You CAN find it. You are meant to be here. You are meant to do and say things here on this earth. If you honestly seek God, he will not let you down. He will lead you out of this.
But most of all, you have no idea what it will do to those you have left behind. Anyone can talk to me about this, and I will give them all the time of day that they want. But most of all: Everyone wonders if those who commit suicide ever said anything first. YES. They do. My brother mentioned it to me during the last year he was alive. I can't tell you how much I miss him. And yes he had problems but that wasn't the answer - not the correct answer. Not the good answer. I can't believe I have to live something like 30-40 more years here without him..... PS: I realized what those sounds were coming out of me when I got the call about my brother's suicide. It was the sound of crying with all my heart. I guess I'd never really done that before. Again, please get help with those suicidal thoughts.
If you want to know ways that his suicide affected me that I haven't said - and I mean the REAL deep stuff, contact me. I'll tell you what your friends and family will go through.
I know I sound like I am on a soap box.... but I do care, and I have a love for people who are in need. I know you need caring people right now, and I hope you'll count me as one of them.
So there IS hope... help is out there, but sometimes you got to pick up a phone and ask for it.
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