I'm so Depressed right now. I'm seriously hateing my life. I hate being a Sad soul who has no one to talk to but my Imidiate family. All of my aunts and uncles and cusins disowned me becouse of my Mental Illness and becouse of the way i am. I've been told how ugly i am and how stupid and fat i am. And I can't take it anymore. It's not right. And I can't make friends becouse i can't trust anyone. becouse every time i trust someone they are nice to me one sec and then when they find out i have Illnesses and such they turn mean and make up likes and leave me. I'm in my 30's and I feel so alone right now. I hate being Depressed and I'm so angry becouse i don't understand why I have bad Karma and bad luck. I don't understand why i was born to lead such a lonely depressing ugly life. God i hate being me. Why can't someone just be nice to me and mean it. Why can't people stay and be true friends with me instead of leaveing me behind. And how could half of a family be so cruel to someone with a Illness like mine. I know i'm the only one in the Family that has these Illnesses but that's not Fair and it's not right and i really feel like
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