I am not really looking for someone to say everything will be alright.. i know it wont. I know i will just get sucked into living a life less lived that i needed it to be. i know i will be miserable andi know i wont be as successful as i wanted to be. I just know that for almost 5 yearsnow i havent been able to do jack siht. im fallnig behind slackers and i am very upset about it. i should behaving sex regularly... graduated college and moved on in my life... instead i have to pay rent to my parents and stay in their house with my loser 30 going on 31 year old sister. i DID NOT make her choices in life yet i am being punished as if i did. I am so fucking sick of it. i need to be a sucess.. i dont want these 5 years to hold me back for the rest of my fucking life. i cant do this. this is too much. i need to win the lottery tomorrow or wake up from this nightmare.
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