wow.... drunk again. not sure if i missed this or not. its too late to be up. but i wanna be up. got a lotta free drinks. that was nice. just sliced my finger open... thats not so bueno. i'm ready to go out and party it up.. ready for coke... ready for anything but sitting here. know its bedtime, for sure, time to go to bed... but shit. i wanna keep it up. its friday, dammit. but at the same time, i don't want any of this. at the same time, i'd rather be sober. rather be anything, anywhere, but this and here. i hate it so much. and nobody gives a shit. went out to celebreate bri's acceptance into northern. i acted like i was happy for her, and really i am, but i'm so jealous. she bitched that her dad said something along the lines of "congradulations, now i gotta figure out how i'm gonna pay for this". wow. how is she even gonna complain about that?? i'd KILL to hear those words. if it was me (which it obviously isn't, even though i know i'd be accepted no question if i applied), i'd get hit with "that's stupid. how are YOU gonna pay for this??" god, i love her but she really doesn't get how lucky she is. i love her, but hearing her bitch about that.... makes me wanna slap her. but i know... its all jealousy.
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