So my therapist asked me if i was suicidal, of course she has to asks that, its her job, and just to answer no I am not, I would never kill myself. But everyone has that feeling of wondering what it would be like if your life was just over right? We wouldnt have to feel any of the pain, fight any of the problems, or deal with other people who are so rude and do not understand. I get mad over the smallest things, I want to run away and disspear from everything. I WANT to start a new life, a new life without any of these problems, I want to be normal, and im not meaning any offense, but I DO NOT want to be one these people anymore. Im so fed up with all of the medicine to help me sleep, to help acid reflux, whatever it may be. Im only 18 and I have to carry around a sunday-saturday pill holder. Its too much. I should be enjoying my life at this age right?? I see my therapist on thursday, she wants to put me on an antidepressant, she says I have a chemical imbalance that I inherited from my family. so even though I have nothing to be depressed about, I just am, so deal with it. Wonderful, more meds. God I want it to all disapear. What antidepressants have any of you found to work best, that dont make you feel completely oblivious to what is happening around you? I dont want to be totally clueless due to whatever they have me take.
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