Depression just wont give up! It always seems to find me no matter where i hide! I know we all suffer in our own ways! Its like it takes joy in teasing us, you start feeling like wow this may end after all, but then it hits like a baseball bat when you least expect it! Sometimes i think the bat would be less painfull! A real slap in the face cold and real. I see how alot of you find comfort in your children! Im truely happy for those of you! My music used to be my comfort, now its like another weekend job i have. People tell me your so talented, but i really dont see it! Im thinking of becomming an alcoholic, thats what just about everyone around me is, and guess who takes care of all of them! Im sorry to take up the board for this, but my tunnels getting really dark right now!I just need a little help, no alot of help! Please forgive me for being long winded!
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