I am with you, 100%. I wish I had $5.00 for everytime I said the words, "This isn't fair" in the past month. Yeah, I know that life's not always fair, but this is just one of the most awful things, and I do not understand why me, or why you for that matter. It does sometimes make me think that maybe I am a bad person and deserve this, but that doesn't really do much for the self-esteem so I try not to think it. Hang in there cbeck, that's all we can do, I guess.

I know it's not fair but we deal with it the best we know how

When I'm depression, I feel like throwing a temper tandrum too but I'm too darn tired to do it! No one wants to have this. It takes time to get through the episodes and to find the light again. Be gentle with yourself right now.

I wanna say how nice it was for you to say most of us are good people on here, that was awsome! And I too feel the same way. It isn't fair. I personally don't think anyone should have to live a life like this. There are so many times I feel half human, and other times I think that's what people think about me, it just doesn't stop bringing pain into my life. We all need a care free day!!!

i agree with you. i often ask these quetions bt i also know that i probs will never know the answers. maybe one day, having been through what we're all going through will make us stronger. im just tryin to learn positives about it. if i didnt suffer from depression, i wouldnt have come to this site and made ace friends and therefore i probs would never have helped those who are going through the same kind of things. i duno, maybe deep (very deep) down there are reasons why we have depression. it's not fair and it's not nice but we are who we are, with or without depression. im only 19 so hoping that it will make me stronger gives me hope for the rest of my life - i do not want to think that i'll always be like this.

I am saying the same things right now in my journal and it feels like a coincidence to me. I also included that even though my family is very religious, as in following a religion by going to church and praying before meals and when we have problems- though I did not talk to my family much about prayer and my problems until recently- I have admitted to myself that I have hard a time believing in God when he allows people to suffer who try to follow him like me and the other good people on this site, whether you believe in God or not I really believe the majority of people try to be good and do NOT DESERVE depression. I gave up praying and believing for quite a while because of this. Maybe SOMEDAY I will be able to not be angry at God/ be sure of my belief but MOST OF ALL I want to talk to people about my problems-not pray to God who can not talk back- and I feel like if God has done ANYTHING for me he has given me this website and that is a seed of belief.

I hate being depressed as well. It seems to be robbing me of so many things. The worst part for me is, logically I KNOW there are answers, emotionally I can't FEEL them.