Depression hurts all over. Depression is that deep dark well that you are breaking your nails and scraping you feet to get out. The more you try the deeper you get. Depression is just that. When you are in that well you can't do anything, you try but it gets worse. You want to do the things you use to enjoy doing but you can't because of depression. You want to go and visit your family and friends but you don't. And if you have children you may find yourself inside another room away from them, because you do not want anyone to get or catch your sickness. That dark well will change every part of your positive thinking into negative thinking. Understand this if a person that did not have depression were locked away in a room for a month I beleive that maybe they would start seeing and feeling depressed. Why because they loose every thing that they are use to seeing or enjoying. That is what a depressed person feels like every day of there life. One day you wake up and everything is different and you thank you have done something wrong and you blame your self. You are thrown into a place you have never been that dark well. Your image of life is not the same. You don't understand because you never felt this before. You feel scared like the world is going to fall upon your being. And there is nothing you can do to stop it. You loose control and your depression starts ruling you. After a while you feel lonly, hopeless, no worth any one to love or look at you. Let Me explain It does not matter who you are. Male or Female - Rich or Poor - The best looking person or the uglest. - The color of your skin -Educated or No Education - A Sinner or A Christian . I can remember before my depression. I would look at someone else and think to myself "Get over it". "All people have ups and downs". See then I was normal I had control of my self. Welcome to depression you loose your self. You love life no more. You go to the doctor and get put on med's. Without those med's you are nothing. Your pills make you. What an exciting life that is. But again no one understands you. So you begin to think that maybe it is just you. That is when you start hating every thing about you. That is what will start leading a person to Suicide. After all what does a depressed person want to live for. Every day takes all you strenght to face another morning that you don't want to see or be. You go to bed every night and pray that God will take your life. Because my friend in a depressed persons mind a life is not a life to live. A Depressed life is hard. Can you imagine fighting every day just to get out of bed. Can you imaging fighting every day just to take a shower. Can you imagine fighting every day just to eat. Can you imagine fighting every day just to open your front door and step out side. Welcome to a depression's world. After a while you get tired of fighting and it just seems much easier to quit. To give up everything. Understand this important message depression hurts everyone around you because you are no longer you. You become something else. Why does this happen well the doctors say that it is a chemical imbalance in your brain. Do you know that there is not a lot that the doctors know about why you get depression. Some doctors say that someone in your family passed this hell on to you. I sure wish I would have know that before I had children of my own. This sickness call Depression is something I would not wish on my worse enemy. Then you ask your doctor when will this go away? Never you are told. Set back and thing for a few moments. Who name one wants to go on with there life with a mental illness. A brain problem that one can not control. My friend Depression does not stop here. The doctors give you med's and some times that takes a long time to find the right ones for you. You want those med's to be a quick fix. A happy pill no not a high pill. You just want one day of laughter without depression. To feel the way you use to feel. Wrong it does not work that way. Don't get me wrong med's help but you will never feel or be the person you once where. Now to those who do not have depression. You are thinking dang - now is the shoke of truth running in your vains. Understand that a depressed person still loves all those who are in there life. But you may not get the visits you use to get. The knock at the door and there stands your baby girl. My mother and father cry because I don't go see them as I use to. They think they have done something wrong. No will they not listen "IT IS CALLED DEPRESSION". I don't want to live anymore. Mom does not understand why and where did she go wrong. No once again will they not listen " IT IS CALLED DEPRESSION". Friends don't understand that you make a promise to do something or come over on a specific day and you don't. They think that you make promises you can not keep, so you loose that friend. But No they need to also listen "IT IS CALLED DEPRESSION". A depressed person is told to except there sickness. But everyone else don't take the time to understand it is not you that breaks the promise "IT IS CALLED DEPRESSION". Please forgive me my friend if my spelling is off or my english is not correct but this is my life and this is a true story and I don't care if the spelling is wrong or if my English is off.
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