Hey.. It hurts so much... I don't know if I can take it any longer... I am having a hard time dealing with this. I can't stay home or go anywhere and not get upset or hurt. Earlier my husband and I went to the grocery store and I got upset about the magazines in the check out line. Every time I go to the store I get upset... every where I get upset about something... at home is a nightmare... tv.. internet... movies... I can't take it. My husband knows we can't go anywhere... or enjoy movies or tv. I have cut tonight. But I know there is something more I have to do... I don't enjoy life.. even if I were alone I would feel the same way... I hate this world. I want out. I have been on meds in the past and I have seen counslors... I hate the way I feel. I hate that society is focused on women and both women and men treat them as sexual objects. Men love women's bodies and women love showing them off and acting sexual... but it is to the extream... even if they are all covered up but their faces I hate it... I hate being a woman...but I would hate being a man... I want to be nothing... I am not fit to be on this earth. I don't belong.
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