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Sometimes when things get really overwhelming it helps to break it down a bit.

I tend to get my pen and paper out and write down all the things that are bugging me. After that I mark all the stuff that I can do something about (some problems have to be dealt by others so you don't have control over those really...like building or legal stuff). Then with the ones I can deal with I get separate bits of paper and write the problem as a header and then write down what I think are possible solutions to them and whether I can solo it or need help from someone esle.

Also when I find myself getting overwhelmed I tend to drop back in activity a bit..some things don't need to be dealt with on that day get postponed for example.

My BF usually has a look at my lists and will point out ones that will resolve itself in time that I am fretting about and so I cross them off the list.

Well......that's what I do at any rate

I fight to keep myself above water or to hang on a little longer until I am given a good day. Maybe this is where the strength thing comes from. I try not to give in to depression. By that I mean that I dont pine on things that upset me more. I try to just keep telling myself that I will make it and if I have too bad of a day filled with tears,ect. I will go lay down or take a hot shower,ect. I try to distract myself. Some people feed the depression. They think horrible things and want to find sad songs to listen to,ect. This has also worked for some people. Just not me. Life may seem hard now hon..but, trust me..we are all given good days here and there.

I can relate to feeling bad for a long time. I just realized that if I keep going for so long when I feel so bad that there must be a reason. That has given me hope to find the reason.

I feel that that all the good days are gone, forever. But, I keep working, everyday. Because, There were a few good days in the past. It's not impossible for them to come back again. I have to have faith that sometime, they will be possible, somewhere, somehow.

thnx for the advice and letting me know others are experiencing the same thing.

welcome to our world hun! you are not alone and we can all relate. big hus hun! and even when you are tired and want to give up....try to push through one more day...you never know what tomorrow could hold.