Once I had a better life, friends and fun everyday. My ideal day now is a day that I don't have to open my front door. I think about moving to somewhere where no one knows me and locking myself away from everyone. My dream of the future? To be a hermit. How much dreams can change. Five years ago I had all the answers, I knew all the plays and the world was mine, I was strong, fit, well liked and respected. Confident used to be a word that would describe me, apathetic fits me now. I will never be that strong again, I don't want to be liked and respected anymore I just want to be alone. I screen my calls so that when my friends call I know not to answer, when they come and pound on my door I ignore them until they leave. I had it all once but I feel like I'll never want it back.
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