I think that my major source of my depression is my marriage. I've only been married for 3 1/2 years. I meet my husband in August of 2007, was engaged my January of 08, and married by Feb of 08. At first my marriage was great we never faught or said a harsh word to one another. We used to spend time together doing things we both enjoyed or just simply hanging out with friends. Before I meet my husband I had a rough time growing up it seemed like I was always being made fun of or picked on or just plan out done wrong. After I meet my husband he made me feel beautiful which to tell you the truth I had never felt about myself. He always complimented me and made me feel so good about myself. Lately Id say within the last year things have just changed. I cant even make him spend time with me, touch me, or hold me. When I try to love or hug on him I get nothing in return except some excuse why he doesnt want me on him. He makes jokes at my expense constantly. He makes comments that I have him on a choke collar and dont let him do anything that he wants to do. He jokes about my body and how I dont look the same as I did when we got married. He makes fun on my smile, which is the thing I am the most self concious about. He makes fun of the way I talk because I have a southern drawl. When Im finally in tears he says he doesnt understand why I cry all the time. Im just wandering if this is what my marriage is going to be like the rest of my life?? I cried myself to sleep last night because I thought I had finally gotten away from all my tormenters just to find that I probably married someone just like them. Knowing this I dont think I know just how to handle it.
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