Hi there I have depression and I self harm as well. I don't really worry too much about them. However I am constantly thinking of suicide and seem really morbid. My friends have started making a joke about how I am always in thought but they can guess that I am thinking about. At first I didn't think it was a big deal. Thoughts are thoughts and they can't do anything to me but then I started making suicide poems and pictures. I even have started a book called back door out of life. Even though this book has nothing to do with suicide at all it is still related to wanting to escape life and wanting to leave life. I am sure that I wouldn't actually commit suicide but it is still in my mind. I have tried suicide once but this was ages ago. About a few months back. Maybe longer. I don't know as I have trouble concerntrating. I also dream about suicide and it seems to be always in my thoughts. It is like I am obsessed. I like coffins, headstones and hangman nooses. The hangman noose is my favourite. I don't really know if this is anything to worry about but I need to get this out. Am I ok? Can I continue like this? Thanks for the help.
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