Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Ok, I know that I normally post a bunch of depressing stuff on here...in fact that is pretty much all I post. I don't intend to bring everybody down, I guess that's just how it comes out though. I find myself thinking about life all the time, and what my purpose is, why I'm here. I just don't understand why I had to be brought into this world...because so far, I haven't had any purpose. I haven't done anything in my entire life that made the world better. I haven't accomplished anything. I haven't made anyone's life any better. I'm just here....taking up air and time of the people who like their lives and who DO have a purpose. I see all the stuff that goes on in the world...the poverty and abuse and wars and third world countries with no structure and I wonder if it's even real. I just don't understand why I had to be brought into this world...I truly wish that I had never been born. I wish I would have at least had the option to be born. Also, I think it should be MY choice to end my life when ever I choose, not anybody else's. I just don't understand why I feel like this every day. I wish I knew what causes this feeling. I don't even know what feeling it really is anymore. I just know it makes me miserable and I can't enjoy anything. I'm at a complete loss...I just want this to be over with. I'm not trying to cause drama or be an emo or anything....I just don't feel worthy of living. I have to go now....to do things I don't want to, as usual. I know I know....there is always something in life that nobody wants to do....but it shouldn't be everything. I don't want to do anything....it's pure laziness. Even something as simple as walking 10 steps to the bathroom seems like the end of the world, it seems like an impossible chore. I have to go though....just eat it, Grant, just eat it and get on with it....
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
I used to make myself do one good deed a day so I felt Id made a differance.
NO FEAR NO LIMITS NO SHAME NO GUILT MAD N GLAD Taketh Careth
I wish I could make a difference in the world, and maybe I can, but not yet, so it's not worth worrying about it just yet.
The world would be less without you as you obviously want to change the world for the good.
Keep your chin up mate!
Sometimes our own worst enemy is ourselves in the way that trap ourselves into thinking we are a prisoner to our depression or something else. You can keep a person locked in a cage but the only person that can make a prisoner of your mind is yourself.
You need to look at what you have now rather than what you believe you don't have and at the moment kimahri you have a lot more than most people.
You have a roof over your head and somewhere to sleep at night
You have a family and they are close by
You have food to eat every day
You have transport available to you if you need it
You have a job
You have friends
You might not think much of those things and maybe your family don't show you much in the way of support but they haven't kicked you into the street, they're not starving you or locking you up in the basement and torturing you.
Yes ok so you the biggest barrier for you at the moment is medication. But instead of having the blinkers on and focusing that meds is the only way to help you, you're going to have to (for now) try other methods, like doing gratification exercises, positive thinking exercises. There is a raft of people here that can give you tips on what they do.
Don't do what one of my ex-friends does and keep saying "NO" and "I can't" and batting away the hands that try to help you. That particular person is now stuck in her rut moaning her ass off and wondering why she can't get anywhere.....and it's simply because she won't let herself be helped, she enjoys the drama and misery and attn she gets from being depressed. The most powerful tool you have is your mind.....use it