currently waiting on surgery and my anxiety is so high lately, and i feel overwhelmed by so much emotions.
is it normal to feel depressed pre-surgery?
it does scare me, not being in control of it all, and not knowing what will happen. today was one of the worst, having an argument with my boyfriend and listening to the possible procedures with my surgeon put me on the edge. I guess im just looking for faith despite the pain. its numbing and paralyzing. And I cant help feel selfish.
dont know what to think, maybe a reason to smile? but i cant seem to think of any at the moment. Maybe I just have to let myself be depressed.
Heres a picture of my new kitten for those friends who i do not have acess to my journal. Shes called bear.
I get that feelings are not truths, but I’m having trouble believing people when they say things that they might even believe are true. I’m glad you’re my friendI’m glad you’re hereYou are loved I’m excited to see you. I’m not okay.....one foot in front of the other, loving on my kiddos, meditating and scriptures and claiming Gods love for me. I’m afraid to offend people. I’m...