Yikes my brain waves must have stretched 80 miles to the office of my psychologist. He called wondering if I had scheduled an appointment with my psychiatrist yet and I said no. Anyway I’ll now be seeing both of them on Wednesday afternoon. That makes for a three peat on next week with VA two appointments at main hospital Tuesday and Wednesday and one for Monday at physical therapy at the outpatient clinic. Not sure if I can take this much care or not. I do know my anxiety and depression levels are up in the danger zone but I can’t pin it down on one exact cause which I guess means a barrel of prayers to begin with and I’ll order more as needed. Ketchup please!!
im in hypervigilance. Im scared of everything and everyone. Everything is a trigger. Im in the crisis house and allowing myself to feel is making me worse.
today is one of those days. Those days that I miss my ex so badly. I often sit and wonder why. Why do I miss him? He probably doesn’t even think of me. His life is continuing as normal. Why miss someone who was so unsure about being with you. I’m trying so hard to move on but it isn’t easy at all. Not a day goes by in which I do not think of him. Sometimes I wish he’d at least message to...