Most of the early part of my life was tolerable, until I became an adult then, all hell broke lose I am a RN I had been on for 25 years. Now I am disabled. That's when depression really set in because of my health problems (I'm not even 50 yet) not saying thats old, I stay in my room with a dark black felt over my windows because I can't stand the sunlight. I have always worked night shift so I don't sleep at all. Why is it that Dr's don't want to give you meds for anything that works especially for sleep and pain? I have never abused any drugs of any kind. I have always had to work my ass off I have raised 3 wonderful children by myself and yea I have to failed marriages. So what else is new and didn't even cheat. I do realize that there are people out there who want to end there life. I don't. There are many people who have problems like I do I have TMJ so bad that it actually makes me lose consiousness because of the pain. know one should have pain like that it's not right no one should suffer any pain. They shoot the horses when they break a leg but, when someone is in a lot of pain that ain't no horse then let's face it your'e screwed. Most of the time I don't want to see another day. I love the Lord and that's all I need is for My Lord to be mad at me. I have seen a lot of death my own family and some wonderful patients. They really need to stop making all these horrible movies that most people seem to love so much (this women is shooting a gun from her half leg , in a bikkni yet) what ass wipe thought of that one and what pin head woman played the part? You don't see men with there briefs on doing shit like that. Boxers look so much better. Oh they say I am severe by-polor. I have not looked at a 12 year old boy and said (oh he is a hunk a hunk of burning love). Wow if you look a certain way you can do so much dirt and get away with it. But they say I have a problem,they say I don't get out much, or enoughI don't want to go out there. Why should I? There's nothing out there for me. Well I'm going to lay down now with all my pain. Pray for me please. If you know of a person who can relieve pain let me know. ( I've done the accupunture).
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