I tried to hang on to one thing good - I tried to find ONE person that I had made a difference to and wouldn't want me to go - and when I couldn't do that - I went to the hospital and my parents checked me in to the psych unit. It seemed defeating at first but it was the best thing

Probably the realization that that option was really stupid and selfish of me.
Realizing that I would hurt/disrespect so many who loved me if I carried through with it.

Luckily for me, the thought has crossed my mind just one time.

My mind talking myself out of it. I always thought that is has to be better than where I am now. And I didnt want to miss that when it happened. Thought I might be giving up too soon.

bugger all I carried em out. Now its just that I don't want to see my mother hurting that badly over something I tried to do again.

my kids, or thibking about a programme I wanted to watch later.

I'm not sure about that. The last time I felt that low, I did act on it but got found in time and am still here. Back then I had 2 step children, no birth children. Now i am no longer with them, but I do have my own child now. I think I am nearing the bottom soon and I'm really dont know how to stop the decline. I am hoping thoughts of my daughter will stop me this time. Or that my state of mind will lift before then.

The glimpse of hope, a flicker of light, that is there , the thought of G-D , that He loves us, and wants us to fight for happiness, and to defeat our so called enemies, one being depression, because deep inside we know we are one, all of us, and on the other side of this self inflicted hell is true happiness. Only we have the power to do this, individually and be there for eachother, and to know that We are all in this loneliness, together, noone is set apart. And to know that we are all part of eachother, even if sometimes it doesn't feel that way. Everyone one of us is important and unique and has something wonderful to give to someone , just believe that you will overcome the personal hell you're going through, defeat FEAR, that is the biggest enemy, let's be stronger than that, LOVE is stronger than fear.

im in it now - the only things keepin me here are my kitten n certain ds members...n i love them 4 it.xxx

The thoughts of my kids growing up without a mother,my family hurting and feeling guilty when they shouldnt feel guilt,my friends and work colleagues(who are great)and for the last 3weeks,its also been God.Its taken me 35 years to find my faith.I dont care if you believe or not,but its helped me a great deal.But the biggest thing that stopped me when I was actually starting to take an overdose the other week,are the fantastic people I have met on here.Thank you to the people that stopped me and talked me round that day,especially one person in particular.Cant remember who she was but cant thank her enough.

Deep inside of my very being I surmised that my self-destruction was not the answer...as much as I wanted to end my life at age 26 and just go to sleep and never wake-up I sensed that if I carried out my actions I would somehow regret it...that's basically it.

It may be a morbid subject but it also may help someone reading this who is considering it.

Too scared that I would wake up a vegetable from the drug overdose. If I new that I could die I would not hesitate

Also, as I matured I came to appreciate that having a life was a very special gift and that I was not in a position to end or destroy that gift. I also now see suicide as being a very difficult karmic hurdle in that (I believe according my spiritual training) that by committing suicide one has to reincarnate no less than seven times only to return to the very same impasse of being suicidal again. For this reason alone, losing and wasting time (seven lifetimes) seems like a long long detention period that I would never wish to repeat!

my son, and before him, my parents

My daughter who was 12 at the time. Now she is 17 & I feel so much better. My own mother committed suicide when I was 15. So maybe deep down there was a part of me that didn't want her to suffer like I did because of that. I think this is a good post because it may save a life.