I'm disappointed in myself right now. I've made some mistakes over the past couple of weeks I think. I don't feel motivated. I keep beating myself up internally, which leads to a vicious cycle of mistakes and beating myself up. The negativity is hard to break out of. I'm scared to be too hopeful because when I get overly hopeful, it all seems to fall apart. I'm hurting inside right now. I just want a hug. I wish I had someone to call up and ask for one. Wish I didn't even have to explain why. I wish I could just say, "I feel like shit. I need a hug" and then someone would hold me tight.
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