in my life now, how i think right now, no one cares about anyone. gp just tries to hurry up cos more patients more money, shrink watching the clock cant wait to say times up, come back next week so he has steady income. Most people become selfish and quick to use you when they need you but dump you faster when they dont. I was always there for all of them, now i hear excuses on sms because there is no time for me even on the phone. Friends I thought i had turn out to backstab and hurt you some told me its jealously but what i have nothing they could want. Its all about money, no one cares anymore, Im surrounded by such cruel people whether they were in my family or friends. somethings changed, nothings the same, but i cant help and feel like the alien, I dont fit inn, I care too much, I helped where I could but they all walked over me and hurt me whenever they get the chance. Im left too afraid to live and afraid to die, struggling with i cant take no more pain, they all made me feel so worthless, invisible, i lost my everything inside. Im not strong enough to stay because to stay to live nowdays is to be confident, selfish, which i am not.I am just no one.
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