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images!!!!!

deleted_user
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please help. i can't stop the images. in some i'm slitting my throat, others i'm stabbing a huge knife into my stomach. The worst one i drive a big nail into my head. I don't think these images. They just appear. i know i've asked for help before but i just can't cope anymore. Do they mean that i am meant to die? I now i want to. Am i weak because i haven't managed it yet? I gave up the college, i couldn't handle it. One day i sat in the toilets for 4 hours crying. i couldn't move. What kind of person am i? What is the point of living if i can't contribute to life?
deleted_user
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No, ou're not meant to die, but you need help. Please talk to your doctor as soon as possible. Images like these can be controlled, but you can't do it on your own. You need to talk to someone professional who knows how to help you. We can support you here, but you have to see the doctor yourself. Please.
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I tried to see my pdoc today but she is off sick until mid january. I took this as a sign that i'm right.
deleted_user
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Whether you realise it or not, you are contributing to life, both to yours and to others. It's not always obvious but it IS there. You're not weak because you haven't managed to die, You're strong because you're staying alive. The sort of person you are is YOUR OWN person, and there's people out there that love that person.
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Images like this can be scarey, I know, I've dreamt these things or similar many times. They are just our own fear coming to the surface, and are seriously nothing to worry about, no matter how disturbing they are at the time.

As for not contributing.... you've just contributed to my life by me reading your post.
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I think you're wrong. How could anyone love me?
deleted_user
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Why would someone NOT love you?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Go see your Dr., call a help line, or someone to come and be with you. Please. This is nothing to mess with
deleted_user
deleted_user
and mine... can you see a different doctor before then? *HUGS*
deleted_user
deleted_user
No, it's not a sign of anything except that your doctor can take some time off. There must be someone covering for hershe can't just leave her patients up in the air with no help at all.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I can't. If i get sectioned again i couldn't bear it. It takes away opportunity.
deleted_user
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She has a locum standing in for her, but he finishes up tomorrow. The new one starts soon and i can have an appointment in two weeks. I don't think i have two weeks.
ChiTownBear
ChiTownBear
if you pdoc is not there, there has to be someone who is taking her patients. Ask who this person is.

If you dont feel comfortable talking to this other doc, then find someone you can tell and continue to talk to them until you feel more comfortable.

Talking to us is good too.
Testycatlady
Testycatlady
nineteen

The only opportunity hospitalization takes away is the opportunity of you killing yourself. Please try and get admitted. It helps. I know. It saved me 5 times in my life.
deleted_user
deleted_user
You have as long as you want. If things get bad go to a hospital. But the images are just that.... images. Like watching a film, they aren't real and can't hurt you no matter how upsetting they might be.
deleted_user
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I have another one in which i jump of a bridge intothe water. It's creepy because i can smell and feel the water.
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