i have been fighting depression and anxiety for a long time. i thought i had it under control. when my husband goes out of town, it triggers my anxiety and depression. My father was pretty nonexistant during my childhood and when he was there, he was brutally mean to me. my husband is leaving on a business trip in 2 weeks and it has consumed me. I dont know what i am afraid of. he has never giving me any reason to doubt him in any way. really this has everything to do with my self doubt in me. everyone says to do something for myself hobby, etc. i cant, the thought of that almost cripples me, isnt that stupid!!!! My mother and i havent talked since Christmas because of some really awful things she and my sister did to me and my daughter. so i decided to disassociate with the negative people in my life, however i do feel somewhat guilty. so all i have is God and my husband to lean on. I feel i am loosing i just want to hide away from everything. My husband is my comfort zone and without him i feel lost and out of control. I dont know what i am asking of anyone... just love and comfort. I am so scared and sad.
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