this pain is never gonna go away i cant keep figthing this anymore im too tired...im sick of it.... im sick of it and its making me sick....im destroying my body piece by piece...but i dont care nothing matters to me anymore...and that scares me....someone asks me how i feel and i dunno wat to say cuz honestly i dont feel much anymore....feeling pain is life to me now, im used to it but i hate it....one lil things ticks me off...just hearing someone whistling raises an anger in me that i never knew i had.....and after the anger is gone all i wanna do is cry and cry forever..but i cant..i wont...i wont let my wall down long enough....all i see myself as is a pathetic idiot who keeps trying even tho she shouldnt....nothing more....i dunno y i even come here anymore, i spend 90% of my time alone in a room...im just sick of this hurting me - every way possible...ive just had enough...just end teh torture....even going to hell would be better than this life...and the dont even believe in that shit
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