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im nothing

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when i look in the mirror i wanna destroy everything i see, my whole existence...i think that if i scarred myself up enough that the pain would finally go away....well i scarred myself, i chewed, and burned and burned, and chewed and pounded...i didnt care how much it hurt, i didnt care how much i bruised or bleed...i have to destroy what i see...i have to...
i hold all this shit in every nite and yet i look in the same mirror and see nothing...NOTHING! :cry: i have no spirit at all, it died long ago, and it keeps dying over and over every time i look at myself....
ive been destroying myself all my life...i told everyone i was scarred from mom but i guess that isnt all of it, im scarring myself...im doing this to myself i cant leave with me....if it were anyone but me id move away but how can u move out when its in ur own mind....the beautiful soul ppl say i have is only
the mask i wear to bury my shattered life....im nothing...
and that sorry existence of nothing should have faded away long before now...long before i ever came for help...help is a non existent thing for me
i am nothing and if they ever find me they will know i was nothing
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Hello Foreverscarred,

I'm so sorry you are in so much pain. It sounds like you may be in a severe state of depression. In a depressive state, one can feel hopeless and isolated. Depression can cause us to see things in a very negative way.

When you are feeling this overwhelming amount of hopelessness and want to harm yourself, it is important to seek Professional Help. You can go to the nearest emergency room, call a crisis hotline or 911. Please seek help, Foreverscarred and do not hurt yourself. There are ways to take this pain and depression away. But you must first seek Professional help to get the medical attention that can help you through this. Hurting yourself is not the answer.

When you need to talk, you always have a support system here at dailystrength. You are not alone in what you feel and what you are going through. There are many people that have been in your situation and have felt that deep pain that you feel. It is a very hurtful place to be.

It is important again, that you seek the Professional help for the overwhelming hopelessness you are feeling and for any desire to hurt yourself. Please continue to let us know how you are doing. It is hard to see right now but things can get better for you with the appropriate help and guidance.
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