im negative and right now i dont give a shit. people expect positivity but how can i when everyday feels like im being abused still. i been longer than 10 years not facing up to it, im trying to now, people expect u to be positive and well i put my hands up free and i dont care if it gets me in trouble for saying this cos i hurt (no excuse i know) but i hurt and say fuck off. im trying, yes i have positive things in my life and yes i notice them, i just cant go bragging about them easily because other shit gets in my way. you know when u got all the people in the world around you but u still feel alone, its just like that. you could have all the positive stuff around u but it dont work. it may very well be me, how i think but im trying and if i have to be so negative and suicidial to get to the positive then i dont give a shit.
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