Hi there, well at least you\'ve acknowledged how you\'re feeling rather than just moping around all day feeling miserable. Have a good cry in the shower or turn the music up LOUD in the car and scream! You\'ll be okay....

I know EXACTLY how you\'re feeling! I\'ve been feeling this way, for four days now. I\'ve been off of my meds for 4 weeks. I\'m angry because I don\'t have a prescription for more! I\'m angry because I can\'t afford the visit to the doctor, in order to get the prescription! I\'m angry because I no longer have health insurance! I\'m angry because I hate myself, my kids, HIM, EVERYBODY! I hate being sick!!!!! And...I have the flu! I just want to hit, and scream, and destroy something...anything; because I feel that inside my head, I\'m being kicked and destroyed! My body/brain, has turned against me, and I\'m helpless. And to just top it off...I have hypertension! I\'m so stressed...my blood pressure has gone through the roof. I\'ve had a headache for one solid month, because of it. Writing makes me feel a little better. The journals are helpful. Knowing that I\'m not the only one, is really helpful. If I could just line my emotions up with my intellect. My intellect knows, that this too will pass. My emotions, just want to go back to bed. I\'ll go to Wal-Mart instead.

Thank you...Thats a valid point...I am actually dealing with the feelings by admiting them and talking about it...Im def gonna scream later..

Turning up the music and crying in a nice hot shower actually sounds like a really great idea!

I hate myself, the people around me, sometimes even God for putting me through this shit!

I knwo in my brain I will get better in time, but my emotions tellme I suck, my family sucks, my entire life sucks!!!!!

Being here has done more for me than anything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Only been here a couple days and have so many friends now! Thanks to all!

Yeah, there's a reason for it - you just don't know what that reason is. It's either biochemical, a change in your brain chemistry, or because of stuffed feelings (usually fear or anger), or a combination of both. In my experience, I think the stuffed feelings may cause the chemistry in the brain to change, just as a poor diet can cause disruption in the digestive process. Whatever the reason, what is important now is for you to start finding effective and healthy ways to get relief. A lot of people turn to drugs and alcohol if they haven't already, and that only makes it worse, and much more likey to commit suicide. So please don't take that route, or stop it if you already are. It is a DEAD end street.