I'm pretty sure that all of us have thought about death at various points in our depression; but those points are our lows. I always think about the person I love the most( my baby sis) and how it would affect them. I'm saying, don't do it; we're all here for u..

it might make you feel better for a bit, but what about your family?

I understand tho, have felt people would be better off without me, depression distorted my view.....stick around it will pass, all things pass, but if you disappear, you will be leaving others in a worse place

they love you, even if you can't see that right now

Yep, me too. But we have to keep going forward. Especially you, because you have a family. So, you can't die, run away, or disappear. You have to look at other options. Say, maybe, file bankruptcy and get yourself some help. I'm in the same boat, I know how it feels, but your family needs you alot.

I have wanted to disappear too.Hugs friend x

I'd love to just walk away from it too. But unfortunatly its not that easy. You could just walk away and leave everything behind but you cant walk away from yourself and the thoughts and feelings you are having.

Sit down and have a long hard look at whats going on, and what you can do to sort some of these things out. Sometimes i find it good to stop and look at things and find ways to sort them out, to have some direction and plan of action can help.

hey your situation is great.

I'm not trying to be funny, but if you are emotionally and financially bankrupt, you have absolutely nothing to lose, and the only way is up!

The first step to up might be recognising somthing positive in you life.

Tell me, what is the best thing in your life?

Your family needs and loves you please take some deep breaths and reconsider :) I am with you on the bankrupt thing on both counts. I can't really help with that as I don't really know what to do with mine.

Dear Garynkc,

I myself am feeling down and shaken. I give you my deepest sympathy.

Could you take a break for a couple of weeks or months rather than walking away forever?

Anywhere you go,you take yourself with you! Why not stay where you are and try to learn to deal with you illness?

It's hard to stop long enough to care for ourselves some times. But, unless you are being physcially, emotionally or sexually abused, try not to make any rash decisions while at your lowest. Please seek professional help.

My family is the only thing keeping me alive... My dad lost a brother to suicide and I know it would break his heart... My mom is very sick and I think she might lose her will to live if she lost her only daughter...I don't want to be alive, but I don't want them to feel this kind of pain...

Gee, what can I say? I, too, feel like I would like to pack it in and find a hole to crawl in. Doctors, meds, etc. and I am still on the edge. When will it stop? I, too, am bankrupt emotionally, and now in debt up to the limit - next step, bankruptcy? I wonder how many other folks are in this same boat. Here we sit, struggling.

My Mom is my biggest problem, health and caretaker wise. I am trying my hardest to get through the process of having her put in a nursing home, but it takes so many forms and records. I hope I can last through this.

I know your pain. You are not alone, by any means. Hang in there - the alternative is so darn permanent.

I really wish there was a hotel to check in to when you want to "check out from life" but return when you think it is safe. There isn't one that I know of.

What about counselling? It does help. Just doesn't take care of it completely. You have to do the work. Ugh! I know!

Hugs to you and all of us in the grand struggle of life.

"if ya got nothing, ya got nothing to lose"

family is most important, not money or anything else...so if anything hang in there for your family until you start feeling better. why dont you go on a vacation? even if its just one day off from work doing something you enjoy?