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i want to die.

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I feel really crap. It's living a lie and it's not worth it anymore. I can't do this anymore. I have it all sorted now. I have two boys they will be better off with out me they watched me fainting it is not a good life for a child. I have asked for help from my therapist and doctor they gave me pills and said to come back in a month. I just wanted to be normal and have a normal life but that can't happen.
Slowly over the past few days the fight has gone out of me. I just don't care anymore. I don't know why I feel like this but it seems to be getting worse.
For the past hour I have collected every pill in the house I think I have lost the plot.
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please don't do anything to yourself. I know how it feels to think that everyone would be better without me, I thought it last night. But it comes and goes, tomorrow may feel better. Your kids would have to live with it forever, like my husband has lived for a long time missing his uncle who committed suicide. please call someone, and tell them how you feel.
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Thanks its too late. xx
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Hurry and call an ambulance. In the meantime force yourself to vomit. You don't want to do this--the things telling you that you want to die are not really you. It's the result of depression, of a physiological illness...you do not want to make your kids suffer. Hurry and get some help...time is of the essence now.
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Please just pray. Do not do anything to hurt yourself. Just pray and ask God to bring you through this problems. You don't wont this to effect your sons. God will not forgive you for takeing your own life. Just talk to him and let him know how you feel. He understand you, but you must have faith and trust him that he will make a way for you. Please think about your sons that will hurt them more than any thing. Pray and have Faith!
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please call 911. i watched my sister die from pills. you don't just go to sleep. i always thought you would just fall asleep and it would be over. it isn't this way. you can shut down your organs and it causes a painful ending. please i am begging you , don't do this and if you have taken the pills, please i hope you can still see these messages. please talk to us.
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please let us know you are ok. *hugs*
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Thank everyone. I just woke up shows what a failure I am I can't even do that right. xx
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if you were really gone, you'd be a failure to your boys, to life, to everything... the fact that you're here means you're not...
"you just survive, soldier, and your soul is beautiful, and your soul is good"-finley quae
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whats a normal life anyway?? what kinda life would you give to your boys if they had to grow up saying "my mom killed herself"? doll, stay strong for those kids... i know you might not think it, but you're their mom... you're their world...
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if you need to talk, email me at dmartin12new and we can talk on the phone as I have free long distance to call you if you wish. I feel teh same wanting to die.
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posted just now, it is dmartin12new@yahoo.com
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I know what you are saying about the stigma but if i carry on like this with the anorexia for much longer i will lose the boys and it will kill me anyway.
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YOU HAD BETTER PUT EVERY PILL BACK WHERE YOU GOT THEM!!!!YOU HAVE KIDS WHO LOVE YOU AND NEED YOU,THEY SAY DOING SOMETHING AS DRASTIC AS SUICIDE IS SELFISH AND I AGREE,WHAT WOULD IT DO TO THOSE BABIES?THEY HAVE THEIR MOM,WHO LOVES THEM LIKE NO OTHER WILL,NO ONE WILL TREAT YOUR KIDS LIKE YOU HONEYBUN,NOONE WILL LOVE THEM LIKE YOU,YOU HAVE FAMILY IM SURE THAT LOVES YOU,WE LOVE YOU HERE,PLEASE GET SOME HELP IF YOU NEED TO, I HAD TO NOT TOO LONG AGO,I DID IT FOR MY KIDS,THEY ARE THE ONLY REASON I DID IT,SO PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP HOPE NOW,YOU HAVE FOUGHT FOR THIS LONG,AND YOU ARE STRONGER THAN YOU THINK,SO KEEP FIGHTING,LOVE AND HUGS.
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I have had to fight every day for the past couple of years and I am now just tired. Thanks eveyone for your help and advise it means an awful lots to me to have people to talk to and not judge me thanks xx
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I too live with anorexia, chronic depression and anxiety, combined with agoraphobia. It's not a great life, but while I have an ounce of me left, I will care about others first. It puts my problems into perspective. We are all going to die, make the most of what you have, even if it feels so painful at the moment. You will get better.
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