The ONLY reason I am still here, is so that I won't hurt my kids. That is no way to live. My life is hell and it has been for a long time. I don't think it will ever get better, and I don't know how much longer I can hang on, I can't believe I have made it this far. My severe depression makes me a horrible parent to the one son still living with me. We have absolutely NO other family support, or other support for that matter. I'm fighting to get thru each and every day. I keep thinking that if I can just make it until my kid graduates in the spring, But right now...I just don't think I will make it that long. I wish I could just end it right now.
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