Hello, I am new here. I just need to express myself out loud (so to speak). I grew up in an abusive home and I bring those feelings of shame and not being worthy of love into my marriage. I am scared to be alone with myself out of fear that I will end everything. I don't want to be "broken" like they call me but I feel like I don't deserve my husband and my 3 girls. How do I make the pain stop?? How do I be me again?? I can't stop crying and wanting to die, I am afraid that my marriage will end if I do something wrong. I sound stupid, I have no reason to be depressed I have a great life, but then why do I wish I wasn't here anymore. Thank you for letting me vent.
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