My depression comes from alot of things took me 5 months of depression to come out to the real world again and because of two things. I was seeing a guy I knew full well he was using me but I tend to think they will change or they wil see the light something like that. and I know deep down I'am making things up , so I let him use me for way to long then stoped it but tryed so much to get him bk or come to me saying something like he could not be with out me anymore.... I know insane right well after a few months of killing my body and looking like skin and bones I left my job that he was working at with me so I did not have to see him no more. then 5 months of hell but I finally got out of it to only date this one guy a bit ago that I went on 4 dates meet his daughter and all made it look real and now told me he would phone to let me know if he could make it to a party I invited him to... to only get no call... thank god it never carryed for long but it brought me down a bit now... I so don't want to go into that depression again =/
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