I try my bloody hardest to have a laugh but it just dont work i am so fucking low in the dumps i cant express how i feel, i hate pouncing on people as they have there own problems there are a certain amount off people that i can really take to and i hate putting my problems on them i feel such a low life with nothing better to do than sit on the PC. My life is just crashing second by second people say tomorrow is a new day well for me it isnt. I tried going out for the first time in ages what a mistake that was im so fucking paranoid i had to turn back and just cry and cry. Earlier i put on a programe that i watch and yes nothing sad happened but i just cried some more ive got to the stage now that there is no point as ruby pointed out in an earlier thread ive had enough off life. Im on new meds yes i no it will take time but to be honest i dont hold out much hope cause nothing ever works. I feel ashamed off what i have become i feel so alone and isolated. I get frustrated and stressed over the stupidest things for example i went for a drive a couple off hours aago and i got such road rage on me i just burst into tears again. My life is just one big fuck up will anything go right i guess not. Im sorry and yes its alot off negativity inside me well im sorry but i have no positive energy to do any thing.
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