Depression Support Group
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Last night was a rough night but I made it through.
After talking to several people I was able to just take one Ambien and call it a night. Before that though, by many hours, I had taken Laxatives(A lot). I know I should not have given into the ED side of my brain but I could not help it. I thought it would emotionally bring me down. It did not.
This morning, fairly early I woke up with the same migraine I went to bed with. So I took my Fioricet and went back to bed. Before going back to bed though I got back into the laxatives.
Now I am not sure if it was the Fioricet(barbituate, caffeine, acetominephan) or the laxatives(causing dehydration) but my heart rate while standing is around 168 and while sitting is runs crazy between 60-100 bouncing all over the place, speeding up and slowing down.
I am dizzy and just sitting here feeling really not so good. I am not having chest pain other then a nagging pain under my collar bone but I think that is from sleeping wrong.
I am totally stupid!!!
After talking to several people I was able to just take one Ambien and call it a night. Before that though, by many hours, I had taken Laxatives(A lot). I know I should not have given into the ED side of my brain but I could not help it. I thought it would emotionally bring me down. It did not.
This morning, fairly early I woke up with the same migraine I went to bed with. So I took my Fioricet and went back to bed. Before going back to bed though I got back into the laxatives.
Now I am not sure if it was the Fioricet(barbituate, caffeine, acetominephan) or the laxatives(causing dehydration) but my heart rate while standing is around 168 and while sitting is runs crazy between 60-100 bouncing all over the place, speeding up and slowing down.
I am dizzy and just sitting here feeling really not so good. I am not having chest pain other then a nagging pain under my collar bone but I think that is from sleeping wrong.
I am totally stupid!!!
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
I tried to get help and tried to get the ex to take my kids and I did not want to go to ER with my kids on tow because the minute they find out this is due to a mental health conditions they would bring stupid CPS into the picture eventhough my kids needs are met 100%.
My chest is really starting to hurt. I keep having random pain into my right shoulder blade so I think it must be gas or heart burn related since it is on the wrong side.
I did not ignore anyone advice, I just finding getting help impossible. Ya know it is bad when you want to call in and have yourself well checked to make things happen.
Screw it, if my heart gives up then oh well.
My brain is telling me this is reason to keep on the path I am on because it does not really matter anyway. I might as well die because I cant do anything right.