I feel so sad... so defeated... so alone... any time I try to have any contact with anyone they get mad at me, yell at me, drag up all this bad stuff, put me down... no one ever listens to me... or is sympathetic in any way... or can ever get have a nice and trivial conversation with me... somehow everything always takes this ugly turn.. I beg them to stop and they just won't and I feel so stupid for trying to have any contact with the world at all because I don't learn. WHy can't I just get it through my head and stop trying? What is wrong with me that I keep thinking I can have a normal conversation? It is like my mind just can't accept what I am.
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