Hi, I will talk if you'd like..what happened today?

I've got a little flu, so I stayed home from school today. I feel isolated. My pup went up the stairs too fast and twisted her leg, so that caused me a good few hours of anxiety. Then my mum came home and called for me to help with groceries, but I was holding the pup, so I couldn't come in her nanosecond time period. She got angry and yelled at me, then left to pick up my brother at the skytrain station. He came home, without her, seemingly forgetting she was to pick him up. He was pissed because the bus got stuck in traffic and was really slow going. I called my mum to tell her that he was home and she said 'I'm mad. really mad, at the both of you!'
So I took the dog out (she was feeling better), and while I was in the yard my brother hollered his anger out to the world in our living room and slammed things around. Puppy didn't want to go back inside, so I took her for a walk.
Got back from walk, mum's home. She seems to have simmered down a bit, but still gives curt orders over her forced apology about being so 'mean'. I retreat downstairs. She comes downstairs and gives me a feelingless hug around the head and asks who i'm ratting to about her. I don't say anything, just reply to my e-mail.
"Fine, fine. you're just so inconsiderate. Just.. Unbelievable."
And she goes upstairs and here I am. Day complete.

Wow, sounds like one hectic day..I get those quite often too..you're mom kinda sounds like mine in a way...it's like an emotional rollercoaster at my house sometimes..just hang in there..at least you got an adorable little puppy to keep you company..my 2 doggies are my best friends..I don't know what I wuld do without them..they give me so much unconditional love and never expect too much in return, just maybe a scratch on the butt or a treat..hehe....I hope you start to feel better soon..maybe make some hot soup or a cup of hot tea..that always helps me

And it's just really hard right now, and I don't want to live like this anymore. I don't want to be here.

I'm 15, is there anywhere I can go with my dog?
She'd follow me in a heartbeat, anywhere.

what do you mean if their is a place to go?

hugz

You could visit your school counselor. She/he may be able to help you determine whether or not your mom's mistreatment is abusive enough to warrent intervention from children's services....that is a risk, too, though, because not all Foster homes are the greatest, either.

Would your mom consider letting you stay with a good friend or relative?

sounds as if your mum is having a hard time with something.