My mom hates art, they are trash to her, I love art, I want to be an artist, according to her i am trash, fat, ugly, lazy, stinky, stupid, blind, deaf, animal is better than me, dirty, loner, etc...... She insults me even when I tried to be good, I took a human anatomy class because she wanted a doctor but according to her i'm too stupid. I "need math" according to her because I can't be a journalist, I must be a business woman, I can't attend an art school because its too stupid and I need to be a business woman, I really want to say screw her but i can't and I really can't take it! I have several times attempted to cut my self with a knife but i manage to drown myself in fantasy and pretend everything is okay but I still hurt myself whenever she insults me..
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