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I've been sacked from my current job and jsut received a letter telling em my refere4nces weren't good enough to still be offered my new job.
I am trying not to freak out but there doesn't seem to be any other option.
We cant live on just his wages and if my references are no good, that means I cant get a new job which means we are fucked which means he will have to move back in with his mum and i will have to move back up to Rugby with my mum and my life will be ruined and I will kill myself if I cant be with him.
So what the fuck am I going to do?
Well first thigns first, my now ex boss is in at 12pm so I am going to ring her and ask what's going on as she knows the reason why I've had time off has been very serious.
Then I am going to look into applying for different kinds of work as it seems offices are always full of arseholes.
I cant believe this has fucking happened after everything ELSE that ahs fucking happened this weekend. I am going out of my fucking min trying toh old everything together and I really am going to snap soon, I swear.
I am so angry and disappointed. The new job isn't the end of the world to lose because I wasn't too keen on the hours and I will most likely have to see my psychiatrist there so it's probably best I dont work in mental health until I have a better handle on my own metnal health problems. But I cant believe they fucking fired me from being the council's TA. I'm a good fucking administrator.
And two lose both jobs this mroning, it's too much.
I'm gonna ring my ex boss at 12:30 and see what she says but I feel like I'm spiralling again. I just cant cope with all these abd things that keep happening. And maybe that makes me sound weak but I'm at the end of my tether, what can I do?
I cant keep a job and Ic ant get a new one so what are we going to do about bills and stuff? What do I do?
I cant even get unemployment because I didn't pay enough NI last year, so wtf am I going to do?
I am trying not to freak out but there doesn't seem to be any other option.
We cant live on just his wages and if my references are no good, that means I cant get a new job which means we are fucked which means he will have to move back in with his mum and i will have to move back up to Rugby with my mum and my life will be ruined and I will kill myself if I cant be with him.
So what the fuck am I going to do?
Well first thigns first, my now ex boss is in at 12pm so I am going to ring her and ask what's going on as she knows the reason why I've had time off has been very serious.
Then I am going to look into applying for different kinds of work as it seems offices are always full of arseholes.
I cant believe this has fucking happened after everything ELSE that ahs fucking happened this weekend. I am going out of my fucking min trying toh old everything together and I really am going to snap soon, I swear.
I am so angry and disappointed. The new job isn't the end of the world to lose because I wasn't too keen on the hours and I will most likely have to see my psychiatrist there so it's probably best I dont work in mental health until I have a better handle on my own metnal health problems. But I cant believe they fucking fired me from being the council's TA. I'm a good fucking administrator.
And two lose both jobs this mroning, it's too much.
I'm gonna ring my ex boss at 12:30 and see what she says but I feel like I'm spiralling again. I just cant cope with all these abd things that keep happening. And maybe that makes me sound weak but I'm at the end of my tether, what can I do?
I cant keep a job and Ic ant get a new one so what are we going to do about bills and stuff? What do I do?
I cant even get unemployment because I didn't pay enough NI last year, so wtf am I going to do?
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
I AM FINACALLY FUCKED IVE BEEN LOOKIN FOR A JOB BUT NOTHING YET.
sorry i cant be much help at the moment but i feel for u hugs hun xx
Talking to your old boss is a good start.
And you said yourself there are plenty of jobs out there. You will be able to find something else, in spite of this one being turned down due to bad references.
Is there a way you can find out what the issue was with your references? Then you can work on fixing what's wrong.
Exploring your options is a good thing. Trying out different things can be good too. There are many jobs that have different requirements, so even if you weren't able to meet this one job's, there is another one out there that you will be qualified for.
Have faith that something will work out. Use your spirituality to help you find confidence and peace. Something WILL come up for you. You just have to keep your chin up and keep trying. And doing that digging is really good too because it gives you opportunity to improve yourself, which can only help too.
Good luck!!!
I tell you I'm feeling more suicidal right now than I have done for a long time. Maybe I should jsut be sectioned and get it over and done with. Atleast that way my fella will get benefits and help. I think anyway.