This is my first time here, but I hope this will help.I don't know what else to do. I can't afford professional help.I just feel like I'm at the end of my rope.I am 31 years old, for the time being,a single mom. I have no job, no prospects for a decent job, and even if I did, it wouldn't matter, cuz my student damn loans take half my paycheck before I even see it. Impossible to raise two kids on $3.50 an hour. My husband is in prison for 4 years, so he's no help right now.I miss him more than I could have ever imagined. He was my life, and now that part is gone, and I feel like I've been abandoned. Left alone with the kids to fend for myself with no skills. I've been a stay home mom as long as we have been together, now what do I do? the last job I had was when I was 22 years old. Now that my kids are both in school, and I'm the one left to carry on, I need work,But who's going to hire a single mom with no work history for the past ten years? i don't feel like hurting myself or others, but I'm familiar with this affliction, and can see that those feelings may not be far off. I don't want to feel like that again. I need to be here for my kids, and right now I feel like a completet failure as a parent. I don't feel like I'm being the type of mother they deserve.I snap at hem all the time and say mean things, then feel even worse for taking out my frustrations by yelling at them. Part of my prob is handling my son. He is six years old, and doesn't listen to me for anything. Twice now he has thrown temper tantrums in public to the extent that some nosey a-hole calls the cops. I don't know how to handle him when he gets like that. i just want to swat his little butt, but my luck that would get me an abuse charge.I don't know if anything I just said makes any sense to anyone, but PLEASE if you have any advice, PLEASE HELP ME!!
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