I can hardly type these words, I can't see thru my tears and this is the first time I have ever really reached out here specifically during a depressive episode, but I am scared and alone. So alone. Please help. Any advice would be helpful. I feel like I am at the end of my rope here, but I usually cope by isolating and hiding under the covers. Oh my God, I am in so much pain right now. I need it to stop. I miss my ex-husband and I don't feel like I am strong enough to keep going. Tonight is the night before our son's first day of 4th grade, and it is the first time I have had to do everything alone. I can't stop crying and I keep trying to reach out to God and I don't feel anything. I know He is there, but I feel so alone. It hasn't been this bad in a long time and I don't know how long can handle it.
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