Hey buddy I know exactly how you feel and I don't have a family like you but I came out of it and you will too if oyu really want to. If you really want it all to go away it will get worse if you put a sudden stop to it. The best way to go is try anything to get better. NOT killing yourself. If something isn't working try another. Just try as hard as you can and REALLY want to get better and you will. I beleive in you!!!

I am so sorry that you feel so bad and that the physical pain is this terrible. I live with physical pain and depression. It is a horrid combination. Trust me, taking your life is not the answer. You said that you have been hanging on for your children. Keep doing that! There is no way around hurting them. YOu dont want to spread hurt onto them and depression and a bunch of unanswered questions for the rest of their lives. This is your fight not theirs. You need to call a crisis center or 911 and get treatment. Treatment for the physical and emotional pain. Just dont give up on life for yourself and your kids sake.

I know just where you are coming from. I wish I had answers for you, but I don't. I've been depressd and suicidal off and on for many years, and yet here I am writing to you. So, all is not quite hopeless. Truth is, life sometimes sucks, then gets better, then sucks again, and so forth. I'm just one of those who tries to help as best as I can. If you need to chat, I'm here for you. Keep the best interests of your kids in mind. Kind regards.

I get like that sometimes too so I can sympathise. I'm not going to say i completely understand, because i don't know what has led you to feel like this, but I will tell you that things get easier if you work at them. Do anything that you used to enjoy, have a wank, whatever takes your mind off it all for 10 minutes. After that it gets easier

i feel exactly the same buti dont have the physical pain and i wont end it all because im too chicken although i do think about it constantly. i find the only strength i get is from my kids and i could never hurt them. they'll always be there for you.

stay alive for your children. they will NEVER get over your suicide. Get in counseling to find that light of day. How you feel emotionally is effecting everything. I hope for you joy.

I am seeking counsleing I have an appt on the 7th Its just been a real hard couple of days a lot of emotional outburst of sudden crying and the what have you anger I just feel drainned emotioanly and question if I can hold on for just a little longer. a lot of doctors are wanting me to be commited "its a law in my state if someone is saying they are suicidal they need to be commited" I am afraid of going to the haspitol again I don't think I can make it through it again. I want to be fixed.

I know how you feel. If you doubt me check my profile. Remind yourself of all the good things in your life like your children. I personally believe in hug therapy. I do not have any kids, but I have 10 kitty's I hug every day. Please do not do anything rash. Call the mental health help line in your area. They may be able to help you cope. And also contact us here. We are here to listen.

Hun,I can relate.I remember using the rollercoaster term in my teens.I'm in my 30's now but the good days make it all worth while because we never really want to die,we just want to stop feeling so crap.Please get all the help you can.See your doctor.Don't give up x

i love how jerks on here spend hours fighting when there are people here who need our help...
hang in there and be strong...there are people here who care, and you will get better!

Don't give up fighting this horrible pain of depression. Sooner or later you will win.

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we are here for you, please reach out

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the original post was at 4:pm, maybe private messages and hugs can help, I usually try and give those