I could really use some advice right now,i suffer from many medical condition,s as well as chronic acute pain 24/7 so this in turn makes me very depressed,i cannot seem to sort myself out i feel as if i am really losing it now,i am lucky if i sleep for 2hours a night due to my various problem,s,i have been thinking of ending it all i feel exhausted all the time,i am also very snappy at my family member,s and my days are literally filled of ways in which to end this hell i,m in,i keep asking myself "why the hell am i here!" i no longer want to spend time with my own husband and son i am permenatly tired and all i can think of is my own demise,i am on medication,s amiltriptaline 150mg daily as well as sleeping tablets,i find myself making stupid mistakes such as typing this into this computer,i have no consentration and i no longer see sight at the end of my tunnel,i really need some help yet when i ring my doc i,m told i,ll have to wait until after august because my doc is fully booked up! i even told the nurse i am prepared to see another doc,sadly again no luck what the hell can i do about it all why should i bother? why?
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