I'm going to be seeing my parents today and I've lied to them about whats going on in my life. I wanted to wait to tell them in person, but I'm afraid that they are going to be angry with me. I haven't told them that my depression has become severe, I don't know how my dad will take that, and I know that my mom will cry. They don't know that I started cutting again. They don't know that I am failing all of my classes and going to withdraw from this semester. My dad will be angry because thats eight thousand dollars gone to waste. They don't know that I started taking prozac and sleeping pills my doctor prescribed me. They don't know that I came closer and closer to killing myself everyday. They don't know why I can't come back home and live there for awhile. They don't know that my drinking got so bad that I was no longer sober. They just never understood. I'm afraid to tell them all of this, I don't know how they are going to react. The only thing I can remember is the first time they found out that I was depressed. My mom was crying and my dad told me that I was the only child he has ever been truly disappointed in...because of my depression. Because I wasn't happy he was disappointed in me. I need some help. If anyone has any advice about how to tell them I would appreciate it. I am going to be seeing my dad later tonight and I am afraid. Thank you.
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