Over the last few weeks i've been very depressed. And I felt myself go to the boiling point lastnight. And today i was somewhat okay but not that good. Now I seem to be getting worse again. And i feel so angry at the same time. I hate my life so bad. I'm so sick of being me. I tryed to make friends on Myspace and no one liked me at all and when I thought i befriended someone it turns out they were mean as hell and delete me. So I deleted my profile on myspace. Then I tryed another site called Facebook same response. I seem to have bad luck were ever i go on the net. And I'm tired of bad luck. I wish someone could put a spell on me so i can have good luck and a good life. But no that wouldn't happen becouse there really is not enough hope for me. It's sucks all i wanted was to meet people. How do i meet people without them disapearing on me. I'm sorry i'm disabled, I'm sorry i'm mentally ill, I'm sorry i'm ugly and have low self estem, I'm sorry i don't drive, I'm sorry I can't work, I'm sorry i have a strange Personality. But it's not my fault. And it doesn't give people the right to make up lies and back away. Why are they afriad of people who are diffrent from others. Why is it that all my life i was told that being Disabled ment you could only be around others with Handicaps. That makes no sense. And it's hurtful. And I'm tried of it, And tired of hurting and crying everyday. I'm tired being depressed of the same Crap. Someone Please help me.
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