yep i'm crying again over stupid things that just happen in life. its not that serious i know but i just hate myself so much for letting people's words send me over the top. i was ready to go to work but right as i was about to leave my car battery is dead. i don't have any friends to call or anyone to help me out. i call my dad and he's like wtf are you calling me for since he lives 4 hours away. understandable but that reaction at that time kinda upset me a little more. i realized i wouldnt be able to go to work tonight and lose much needed money that i can't afford to do without. that really made my eyes start to water but i wasn't crying. i didn't even cry about the car. in fact if i didn't have to work tonight it wouldn't even be a big deal really. what really sent me crying and like put me back into the reality of this miserable thing i call me a life was when i called in to work and talked to my boss and explained my situation and hes all like 'what you mean you have no friends who can help you or you don't know any guys who can jump you off?' and i'm like no cuz if i did i wouldnt be calling in right??? but i just said no. the he said 'well you must not be very nice outside of work' and 'you need to be nicer to people and stop being antisocial' and i said ok sorry about this and he said well its ok its gonna take points off but its ok i guess. then when i hung up i started crying and feeling bad about my life and not having no friends and having to tell my boss i have no friends and he can tell everyone else i have no friends but now i'm feeling better but i thought i should just get that off my chest. i have nothing else to do now until the morning since i can't get to work.
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