My husband is being fired as of the end of the month. Merry Christmas. We have until the new year to figure out how to get a new job going so we can make bills. I'm stressed out and upset to the point of being unable to stop crying. I feel completely distraught. I'm trying to hold it together for my young son but I just don't know how things are going to possibly work out. I can't get past the stress and anger about the situation. And the holidays! If it weren't for my son I'd go to bed and not come out until sometime next spring. Things were going so well. I should have known this was coming. Why did I let myself think that there wasn't something waiting on the horizon to just come and smack us in the face and ruin the happiness I'd finally felt. It lasted a whole two months. I should have known. Now I hardly feel like I can move. I have no idea how I'm going to go to bed and actually sleep. I'm sick of staying up all night thinking about the future which looks awful right now. Sometimes life feels SO hard. What's this life for anyway? I'm still trying to figure that one out. My son is what I can think of, but then what is the point of having kids either since they'll grow up and possibly be in this situation too? I don't get it. It seems like a cruel joke....like mice on their little wheels going nowhere for no reason. I just feel like there's a hollow spot where my heart goes and I can't stop crying and feeling like doom has come to stay.
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