Today was a horrible day. It was supposed to be a good day. For a month I've been doing well. Today it felt like all my efforts have been in vain and I'm really close to going backwards again. I want to get better but it seems like no matter how hard I try nothing changes. I came to my house today and my boyfriend was drunk yet again I feel so sad and lonely. The one person I really trust wasn't there for me and it's not the first time either. He appologized but thats just words it doesn't change the fact that he wasn't there. He knew why I was vunerable today and he decided to choose the alcohol over me. That really makes me feel like a worthless piece of crap. I'm so scared of going back into severe depression. Anyway if anybody has any suggestions for me Id really appreciate it since right now I really need support. Anyway ignore the spelling errors it's 2am in the morning and I'm drained from such a horrible day.
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