I really am depressed beyond what I normally am read a friends journal and they are in such a dark place and has put me there as well because all I want to do is help and make it better take there pain and hurt away and have them feel happy and alive not alone and miserable which she definitely is,I guess part of my problem to is when I get invested in a perosn it's all or nothing and then I feel such loss and at one to when there is just nothing I can do about it and feel completely hopless and wonder why there isn't anything I can do to help change things around for the person,I just have to sit back hang low and hope they fix things for themselves but time may be running out and for that person I am scared,I am not scared for me I am always able to pull myself back up and be ok even when things in my life arent ok at all I am a survivor and refuse to give in to anything and situation and keep fighting for my life and things I want in it.Well thanks for listening all,Kim
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