I'm feeling a little better today than yesterday.I still feel pretty shitty today.I can't shake the feeling of wanting to cry.I'm so ashamed of myself for not being normal.I'm such a horrible role model for my children.I'm also a horrible boyfriend.She helps me so much and I have nothing to give back other than my unconditional love.Actually I don't feel any better than yesterday,but every ones support on here helps lots.I'm so sick of not being able to function like I should be able to.I feel like I have no purpose in life at all.Why am I here?I got no answer for that.Every ones life would be so much more joyful without me.I feel like screaming and beating my head off the wall till I can't do it anymore.I'm such a shame to the human race.
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