So today started out a normal day. I woke up and took my sister to work. I came home and it was really cold so I wet to my sisters bedroom and slept there for a while since I dont have room. I sleep on a sofa in the living room. When I woke up I took my mom somewhere because she doesn't drive. My father is ill so he can no longer drive. I went on doind my daily chores and everything seemed to be a better than an average day. I was in an ok mood which is not too ordinary, usally I'm sad or sometimes a little ticked off but ticked off is rare. So I finally get home and enjoy the rest of my afternoon. Later in the day I just get pretty down for no reason. I speak to my best friend va internet and find out depression is no stranger to her. She just tells me how bad she feels about her break up with her ex boyfriend aand that she was talking to this girl that she didnt really like but she just wanted her because she wanted some one to hold her and comfort her when she is down and such. Anyways I feel like a jerk for not being there for her but it's not like eeverything is ok in my world. I'm hardly ever seen anymore. I try not to go out because I fear that people will find out who I really am. I feel like shit most of the days because at night when I go to sleep I feel like crying because I'm poor. I used to have money when I was younger. My parents were very successful entrepreanuers and I had everything I kid could want. Then my father became sick and my mother couldnt handle on her own so we haad to sell. Now my mom stays home taking care of my dad and her grandchildren. Ok is it just me or is it really fucked up that my brother and his wife domt help my mom out financially with thier children? Their kids (3) stay at our appartment for the week and they pick them up on Firday night and bring them back on Sunday afternoon. Ok they have been with us for about a year or two now and in all this time they have only gave her money like two or three times. They know how poor we are but they dont seem to care. We sometimes dont even have enough money to eat. Last year things were so bad that we couldnt even celebrate Christmas. The only reason we ate on Christmas was because my Aunt invited us over to her home for the holiday. Ok they (brother and his wife) say they dont have any money but my sis in law just bought herself a new car. Is that not F***ed up? They dont give my parents one dime for their kids but they go out and buy another car? That is some bull! I cant stand it anymore. And the worst thing about it is that they act like they are doing us a favor! Those ungrateful bastards! I mean enough is enough! They are my nephews and I love them but they ARE NOT my kids. I dont know I just feel like shit all the time. But I guess its just human nature right? Thanks for reading!
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