i got into a fight with my mom last night, and i said things i shouldn't have. i did things i shouldn't have and i really feel bad now. i'm thinking about checking myself in somewhere. i'm not sure yet. i really feel like i need help. i'm for sure going to the outreach place. i need to get on something. i've been trying to fight my problems by myself for a long time now, and it isn't working. i'm scared about this because i have more problems to add this time. (anger, not being able to sleep, ect.ect) so i will probably be put on a whole buntch of crap, which is something i don't want, but i know deep down i need to do. i'm hurting people around me now, and i can't take that. so i'm doing it. i'm going to get the help i need.
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